Where we could be…
This wanderlust that’s hit me has morphed into something insatiable. I find myself looking through travel sites, and gorgeous places all around the world. Wishing, willing myself to be there. But I can’t.
And it’s turned into this incredible frustration. Frustration because I’ve been set back another semester due to incompetency. Frustrated because I’m stuck where I am, and I feel like I’ll always be stuck where I am. Frustrated because even after I’m done school, which is what is holding me back at the moment, I have even more schooling left. Schooling that I’m not even sure I want to continue in.
This year has been one of the most frustrating. It has left me drained and unsure. I don’t know if this is what I want to pursue anymore. I’ve lost my passion and direction. Or rather, my passion is still there, but I’m not entirely sure if it’s enough to keep me going for another 7 years while I go through school.